My conversion to christ came out of nowhere, thanks to an art book of the Amsterdam Art Academy that had presented only one paragraph on Jesus. Of all books written about Jesus, my conversion happened after reading this half page in an unknown art book that I had received freely by a neighbour who was an artist. The first question I had after my conversion was if I was a catholic or a protestant now. Mainstream christians underestimate often how less non-believers know about the Bible. The answer is: nothing…
Despite the fact that I was converted to christ without any church intervention I decided to visit church. I started with the Russian orthodox church because I was learning Russian at the time. It was a torture. I remember long murmurings by an orthodox priest who prayed all the time for our queen and who sat with his back towards us. I remember endlessly singing until my throat refused to produce any more word.
Then I attended a protestant church. It was less extreme than the Russian Church but still… They used a Psalm book and a Songbook and there was another flyer. It lasted for some time until I understood which book I would use. If you were a new visitor no one explained to me how it worked. It was singing, singing, singing. Then we had to stand up, pray the Our Father, sit down, sing again, stand up again, say another prayer, sit down again. A final word by the clergyman, then we all had to line up and wait for the clegryman to walk to the exit. Step by step we went to the exit, all of us waiting for the big moment when we could shake hands with the clergyman before leaving the church. I felt crazy in my head. What did all the other church people had that I did not have for they could bear a whole church service without becoming mad. I call it Darwinism in church.
In my own city I went one time to our central Protestant Church. The clergyman said, “let the darkness invade into your hearts.” Everyone murmured “Amen.”
I though, “did I hear this right?” Yes I did.
My conclusion was that all the others were under hypnosis. As I believe that Charles Darwin was channeled by evil spirits. In the Egyptian Book of the Dead we read that Osiris had already lived for millions of years. This sounds as the evolution teachings.
Rituals are very dangerous. I used to join a Taizé group that was orgganized pretty hierarchically. Some people in the group were clearly “the boss”, while nutcases as I were asked to only listen to the others. They sang Latin songs, I did not understand any hack of it. Then there was a prayer circle. After each one’s prayer a Latin confirmation was sung. I felt that the others in the group were being deceived and under hypnosis. So I said, let’s pray for the people in the International Space Station.
No one asked questions. They all sang their Latin words as a conformation to my prayer request. Now I was sure, I was surrounded by demonic forces.